The boys and I headed home for a couple of weeks. Yes, I needed to go home! I had also scheduled an appointment for Jared with a specialist just after he was born and June was the earliest appointment they had. Anyway, to make a long story short, our insurance was ending and so we justified the flight because of the money we would save after insurance paying for a dental cleaning, and doctors appointments..... and I am a baby and needed to come home. Adjusting to being a single parent who now has two kids was a little rough, the Phoenix heat was blistering, and I needed to get my mind off of just everything! I missed my family terribly and was having a hard time adjusting! I felt terrible leaving Mike for a few weeks, but he was so understanding, as usual, and it actually helped him. He has been VERY busy and feels so guilty not being able to help me more or spend more time with us.
I was a little nervous about flying alone with two kids. I won't say it went well, but we did ok. Jack has been on a plane before, but he was just over a year old and probably does not even remember it. Security went fine, but Jack was really nervous about going through the scanner. He stalled for a minute or more and then finally just bolted through! The airport workers were very helpful with my stroller and carseat. Once in the airport, a man approached us and asked if he could give my son a toy. I was really nervous, at first, about this guy trying to give my son a toy, but soon realized he had a tag on and worked for the airport. Annal, I know, but you never know these days. He gave Jack a little rubber airplane that was so cute and Jack loved it! Sadly, we lost it in the airport coming back to Phoenix. We need to find that guy again!
We were a little early and so I had time to feed Jared before we boarded. Thank goodness! We boarded the plane and I could tell that Jack was getting nervous as we walked towards the back of the plane. I finally found two seats together and I put our stuff in and Jack refused to go in the aisle! He wouldn't go near it and just kept yelling, "No!" I finally sat down and was trying to coax him in with treats and toys, but he was fighting me and would not leave the aisle! I would force him in and he would fall to the ground, screaming. Remember, this whole time I am holding my two month old baby, while fighting him. He was laying in the aisle and people were trying to get to their seats and I just kept apologizing and telling them to just step over (or even on him) in order to get by! I was so embarrassed and was fighting the urge to not loose my patience. I kept trying to rationalize with him, but nothing worked! Luckily, seated behind me was a family that I knew had to be LDS. I actually noticed them and their four kids before we boarded. They were so kind and were trying to help and were offering Jack treats and toys. Finally, I asked the Mom if she would be willing to hold my baby and she was said she would love to! I handed off Jared and focused on Jack. By this point, the flight attendant came up and said that we were getting ready to push off and that he had to get in his seat. I was so worried that they would make us get off! I kept telling Jack that, but he would continue to scream and cry. I don't know why, but I finally pulled out the little goodie bag they give kids as you board the plane. Inside, was a coloring book, pencil and wings. I showed him that and he was like a switch! He came right in, sat down, buckled, and was happy as can be! Talk about DRAMA! I was so grateful he gave in. I think he was just really nervous and didn't know what was going on, especially when I wanted him to go into this tight space with tons of strangers around him. I spent about ten minutes playing with him and making sure he was comfortable. What a blessing to have had that family behind me! They were so kind and I felt comfortable letting them help out with Jared. The rest of the flight was perfect! Can I admit that once I saw the green mountains and Utah Valley from the airplane window, I literally had to fight back the tears. Then as we walked out to the baggage claim and I saw my Mom there waiting, I broke down! I felt such a relief to be home.
My parent's helped me with my boys and getting me to all of our appointments. We went to the cabin and enjoyed the cool weather! It was Jared's first visit to the cabin and so we had to document it.
While we were in Utah, I helped my Mom with the summer boy's party, but I will put that in a separate post. My Mom helped me so much with the boys and helped me to relax a little and get caught up on some sleep. While I was putting Jack to bed each night, she would bath Jared. She loved giving him baths! He had just started smiling before we came and so he was really starting to smile for Grandma.
Overall, my trip was really helpful. I came back to Phoenix, refreshed and ready to take on this new chapter of our lives! We all missed Mike so much and were very happy to see him again.
I think we can do this!
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